This list is made up of things that you are suppose to do and not suppose to do. There is a lot more emphasis put on what you are not to do than what you are to do. Some things on the list were good things and some of them even came out of the Bible. This list can be as long as the imaginations of men, or the traditions of the Church. We were taught to walk "straight down the line." If I was to walk "straight down the line", then I could feel good about myself and the supposed relationship that I had with God.
This kind of belief gave me a Spiritual Arrogance and Spiritual deadness at the same time. Along with this arrogance comes a feeling of being better than others. Portraying Spirituality through appearance also is prevalent. This is one of the things that are taught threw the "List" , and appearance becomes more important than what is going on inside of me. It is outward conformity not inward transformation. Peace, Love, Joy are non existent in this type of scenario and for me they were just words in scripture that didn't have much meaning.
As a legalist I spent a lot of time evaluating others instead of examining myself. I would judge others based on how they looked or if there standards were as high as mine. This kind of self righteousness brought arrogance as well as discontentment to me. I always felt a need to condemn others. This has been an ongoing problem for me but by God's Grace He is been revealing to me Truth, changing me and the future of my family. I am extremely Grateful. I am growing in Grace and learning to love others and know what it means to have an abundant life in Christ the he offers. My obedience to Christ is not a performance based relationship where I attempt to keep the "list". My obedience to Christ is out of love for Him and what He has done for me, for His Forgiveness, Mercy and Love.
Since realizing my error and asking God for forgiveness there has been amazing growth in my relationship with Christ, my heart, my wife, my kids, as well as others. I still have tendencies to fall back into legalism which I have been around and known most of my life. I have been blessed with the guidance of the Holy Spirit guiding me into Truth and away from my error. I also have been blessed with a great Pastor and group of fellow believers that are patient with me, forgiving, and loving toward me no matter how i "perform". I hope to one day be an encouragement and a blessing to them as they are to me.